I believed in the purest form of love there was. Something which only existed in movies. Others read what I wrote and felt uplifted. They called it beautiful. But it was just my life. I believed it. All of it. And it made me better. I wrote better. I worked better. I felt strong. All the things that love was supposed to do for you.
And then you told me it wasn't love…
Love is just a package to be sold and purchased. We feel things and we think it's love. But maybe it was just a good salesman.
Thank you for helping me to find my voice. For letting me create this world for us to exist. It wasn't real. But I was happy. Although I no longer believe in love, I believe in myself. And that's all I need to keep going.
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wow.
i feel ya grrrl.
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Beautifully put.
wow, very right on, thanks for this...
xx, k
Love or something like it. The impermanence of it all.
My favourite sentence(s) of all is "Love is just a package to be sold and purchased. We feel things and we think it's love."
That is just beautiful.
:( think i want to cry now. must be a sign for me to let go of him for good?? you write so beautifully lulu<33
Wauw. I don't have beautiful words to tell you what an amazing text that is, but it's amazing.
If you are going through some things now, I feel so sad on your behalf, I can only say that time will keep on passing, and what does not kill you, or scar you for life, will only make you stronger <3
xxCaroline
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Hi Caroline, rest assured. I am very much in control.
It's okay to love others even if they don't love you back. Just makes you a better person because love gives - it never takes. Not everyone is capable of it.
Lulu, I wish I could sit down and talk with you...he is so incredibly not worth your heartache and sadness. Trust me. He's just a bitch in heat; confused and selfish. Not to mention completely without good taste. Don't give him any more power over you. Don't give him that sick satisfaction of seeing you write about him. No more.
lulu je pense à toi
This is touching, but I don't think it's healthy to have one man and one particular relationship shape your views on love.
I get the feeling that this guy had a way about him that made him seem well-travelled, with some sort of wisened "insight" about the world.
That doesn't necessarily mean you should take every interaction with him as a big revelation.
In my opinion, love is very real. It isn't a package to be sold and purchased. Just because someone is incapable of it doesn't mean it doesn't exist. It just depends on your point of view. I hope you don't allow him to wholly shape yours.
you write beautiful-honest prose/ i like visiting your blog:)
thats how i feel now. self worth isnt dependent on love. that's how i felt, until this morning.
it's difficult establishing independence, but for true happiness and internal peace, its gotta come from you alone and not in relation to anyone else.
oh lulu, major hugs. You really do move me so deeply.
I love your blog more than any other that I read -- it's the only fashion blog that has things to say that mean something to me. You write beautifully, you put things eloquently, and your posts cause me to think. I think it's influenced the way I think and write.
I hope you feel better.
You have managed to say exactly how I feel in so few words. It always baffles me when someone tells me they love me even as they make a decision which runs counter to what they are professing. I've had boyfriends break up while saying they love me. What is love?
nooooo! you have to believe in love. it's real. even though i've never been in love, i know that it's out there. we'll find it at the right time with the right person. just wait for it. don't go looking. it will just come. :D
:)
Carrie
http://readmylifeascarrie.blogspot.com/
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